Thursday, January 23, 2014

In the new year

Life is very very busy right now. D is neck-deep in work, trying to finish his thesis on time. We found out this week that we have to move out in a month, as the landlord wants to sell the house. This is very frustrating, as we (I wish dearly I could do it all myself and save D the time, but there are things only he can do) must sell all our furniture and stuff. We're probably going to stay with friends, hopping from place to place as necessary until we go traveling in May. I'm sad to leave our house, as D and I have lots of beautiful memories there. But I'm hoping our 2014 Year of Travel will be an exciting (and not too stressful) adventure. Of course there is also work and worry about jobs (I have a love-hate relationship with my current means of earning money) and careers (am I a failure for not being employed in a "real" job a year after I've graduated?) and visas (asd;flaksdfnv) and just trying to be healthy and happy (should I be worried that I worry a lot? is looking forward to getting on Medicare so I can afford to visit the doctor and the dentist a sign that I've lost my youth?) are big things on my plate. And I really miss New Mexico. Like, a lot. But I must get through all of the above and then some before I can go back.

So, in honour of all the STUFF that I have to deal with and get rid of this year, here's a poem:

New Year Resolve

by May Sarton
The time has come
To stop allowing the clutter
To clutter my mind
Like dirty snow,
Shove it off and find
Clear time, clear water.

Time for a change,
Let silence in like a cat
Who has sat at my door
Neither wild nor strange
Hoping for food from my store
And shivering on the mat.

Let silence in.
She will rarely speak or mew,
She will sleep on my bed
And all I have ever been
Either false or true
Will live again in my head.

For it is now or not
As old age silts the stream,
To shove away the clutter,
To untie every knot,
To take the time to dream,
To come back to still water.

1 comment:

  1. Seriously, I haven't had a "Real Job" and I've graduated a number of times. So now I'm just trying to find work as a clerk at a bookstore because really, that's all I want to do now.